but how does it matter to any one?

I know i shudnt have done what i just did....and now m in a delima...thoughts running in my mind...
if i did was it right? even if i had to keep aside my self respect for a while...
for a few minutes i had to forget all the humiliation....
did i fall below my eyes...? or have i risen above some1's eyes...
but does it matter to any one?  perhaps no....but perhaps yes to someone..
the anger n frustration though exists...but not sure what made me do it...some thing which i could not resist...why did that happen?
i know i could have been ignorant of the situation..could have absented my self...i tried that? perhaps yes..
i need to be more rutheless...more cunning...i need to bring out the kamina in me...will i be able to that ? perhaps no..
not a big deal...go giver!
But there is someone above all these and taking notes of things...doing his calculations.....Just wait to watch his Balancing act!